Not really a surprising result, i don’t know if anyone in our department would fail their master thesis defense, but still, i am happy, really happy 😀
After this crazy month with my crazy trip over the US with my parents, adjusting my identity from student to … some kind of employee(?) adjusting my mood and started to get used to the coming change and leaving, finishing up the thesis and condense it into a 30 minutes presentation, all these things that just happened, now seems to be pretty “far away” from me, cause i still doubt, have i just lived my life like that in the past month? LOL
Dan asked this pretty high level question (like he always does) at the end of my defense, what’s the main take away from your study? not only academically but spiritually, what did you learn from your study?
i pondered at that question for a long while, and really, there’s no simple answer to this questions. All these hours that i spent testing to synchronize the eye tracking system with the display, all these hours i spent reading how Eastern people are different from Western people, all these hours i got pissed off by how slow the CISER system can get in running those stats tests, and all those hours i got amazed by how stupid i could get in reading/writing/speaking/analyzing data…
Patience, was what eventually came out from my mouth. I learned to be patient, patiently waiting for an hour for each participant, patiently dealing with the results, patiently sitting there and think, what else did i miss? I guess i am way more ready to be a nerd now than when i just started this study a year ago.
I am sure this experience has changed me in a profound way. It’s only that i don’t know where these changes gonna lead me to, i can see myself being a researcher, but now i am moving towards a slightly different direction, which i chose myself.
I am primed in someway, and i was brave enough to jump out of this priming a while ago. But, will i be back? Do people choose what they believe/want or do life lead/teach them what they (should) believe/want?